Current mood : Shag );
Current song : Beyonce-disappear.

I yearn for a love that won't burn me in the end. .

Okay, Guys sorry for not posting yesterday. I was veryvery sad yesterday.
I dont know how to describe the feeling. My tears just roll down from my cheek.& i've nothing to say. Wiping away my tears without you, It felt so Bad. I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I felt and still you would understand.So now I leave you without a sound, except my heart shattering as it hits the ground. So what if i live without you? I still can moved on. I regretted alot, regret that why did i give you another chance. I know, i played with your feelings. But after that, i realised that you're too good for me. I tried very hard to pay you back. Trying to love you more, & i did, maybe you dont know how much i love you. Perhaps you'd be a bit surprised how often, if you knew, a joke, a song, a memory will make me think of you. & it'll be kept in my heart, Cause this is all our memories. I enjoyed the times with you. I'll hold yesterday in my heart. I remember, you're always so shy. & lastly, find a better girl. Goodluck then . I'll forget you. Cause the more i think of you, it makes me feel so hurt.I thought that from this heartache i could escape, but i fronted long enough to know, there ain't no way.

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Okay, above, the post is for someone, & i know he'll read it. Chatted on phone with DominicTan ytd! It was kinda fun. Cause he was funny(: He cheered me up. From, 9 plus we talked until 2/3 plus? I forgot already, he wanted to find his friends so we can't talk. After that callled kenghoe chat, cause i can't sleep. So chatted! He's another joker. Keepp cheered me up. & i laugh. Thanks to both of the guys! Okay, so today i woke up @ 3.22pm. & played comp. Went to somebody's blog, & i cried again D: WTF! What am i doing? *sigh.

To kuvakoh: Girl, i went to read your blog. & i cried so badly. Ytd i went to write a offline message for you. & you never reply. & i know your answer. 9 years of friendship, you wanting to break it? Can you answer me? I remember i said to you this" No matter what happpened, we'll still be Sisters right?" & you smiled at me. Maybe you think that i wrote for you this is all Craps. But dont forget, you know me very well. & i never blame you for anything. I've no idea what Siyi send to Sean the message. I admit i was very sad + angry, when i see you & him so closed. & know you two are just friends. But it'll make me feel hurt. & i wanted to ask you on that day , " Am i transparent?" Maybe i wrote this message for you, you'll be thinking why am i writing until so xialan or whatever. Its up to you. & I remember you cried on the phone. I'm crying so badly too. I dont know why it happened so sudden. I'm trying to say something to you. I know maybe everybody thinks that i'm a bitch who made you cried so badly. I heard all those voices. Voices that people comforting you. But me? Crying like nobody buisness. Everyone is by your side, but me? Your friend snatch your phone, & keep lecturing me . Wtf is this? You know its between me you& siyi. I know she's drunk, but is this a reason to win? Jiayi, i'm really very tired of everything. I've got many things to tell you, But not here. It's okay if you dont want too. & i trust my eyes. I believed what i saw with my own eyes. I'm looking at you both, so closed. That's the reason why i walked away. While i'm writing, i cried so badly. Hoping that things wont happened . But it's too late. Tears are words the heart can't say. I'm sorry for everything. Really, because of me, things happened. Will this be the last message that i wrote for you? Takecare.